I use a lot of exclamation points and run-on sentences, because I think life is more fun that way -- and if you disagree, then I'm sorry because truly, I understand how annoying both can be. However trite and silly my writing or my meals may be, they are all in the interest of getting words out of my body and food into my body. I'll try to strike a middle ground with this blog, making it useful and minimally obnoxious. I've struggled with food my whole life, trying to figure out what to eat and where to get it. Especially food that aligns with my morals by not hurting people or the environment. I sometimes (often) panic so much at finding a meal or deciding what to eat, that I forget everything I know and love about food and wind up eating nothing. No, that's not a good way to lose weight! It's a good way to make your body think it's starving and needs to hold onto calories, or to send you into a spiraling depression (hello, 20 years of my life), or cause a hardcore candy binge.
I got into the food industry because I figured if I needed answers, other people did, too. How do you eat responsibly, regularly, healthily, and deliciously? I thought I could figure it out, and spread the word. I studied sustainable food and marketing, organized farm-to-table dinners, and worked for two of the country's largest oyster companies. I started an online grocery store, selling high end sustainable foods. It's great, I'm proud, and I'm stoked to be able to help other people get access to healthy, delicious food! But it doesn't help me eat three meals a day. Writing a really tasty baked oyster recipe won't teach me how to cook, or keep me from eating canned sardines on dry bread for every meal. I've spent so long acting like I have the answers -- the first iteration of this blog was called "The Lip Smackin' Crusade: simple answers to today's food disorientation" -- but I don't. I can barely make an omelet. Most days I resent the fact that we have to eat.
I don't know why you're reading this blog, or if you want to continue. But if you want, maybe we can muddle along together. Not looking for answers, just focusing on eating every day. Multiple times a day. Sometimes I can't believe it's true that we actually do have to keep eating every damn day. It's exhausting and frustrating, and it can bring us some joy sometimes. Crusades are not easy or short, and we might be on this one for life, just taking it one meal at a time. Food is so much more that fuel, but at its core we just need it to survive. The Crusade I'm on is a Lip Smackin' one, to bring joy into my life and keep those lips smackin' as long as I can. Come along if you'd like!
xoxo Emily Wilder Sea-E-O of Salinity Seafood & More